Quote of the Day (actually, it's a song):

When I am down, and, oh my soul, so weary
When troubles come and my heart burdened be
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence
Until you come and sit a while with me

You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders
You raise me up, to more than I can be
---"You Raise Me Up" by Josh Groban

This song means a lot to me right now. Lately, I have just been in some sort of rutt. I just don't feel right. I just feel sort of lost and weary. I know it's probably just because I'm home and missing college and what not, but I just feel weird. I just feel like....lost. I know that God has a plan for me. I know that he knows who I'm gonna marry, what I'm gonna major in, what job I'm gonna get, etc. I just wish I had some clue to those answers. I've really been working on trust lately in my life. As most of you know, a lot of stuff has been going on in my life lately. Trust is the only thing I can cling to. I just know that God has a plan for me, and I know that I'm slowly kind of starting to follow that plan, I think. I know this doesn't make much sense. I really can't describe how I feel. I was talking to Sarah Blair tonight and she mentioned that she just feels like she doesn't have a life anymore. I agree. I just feel so...weird. I can't describe it. Anyway...back to the song. I love this song because it kinda explains how I feel. When I'm down and my heart is burdened, the only person I can turn to is God; the only thing I want/can do is just pray, and I know that God will work everything out, no matter what it has to do with. Whether it is with my relationships, job, school, trying to figure out a major, anything, I know that He has it all worked out. I just really wish He would let me in on the secret. ;) God raises me up to stand on mountains and he raises me up to walk on the stormy seas of life, and boy, can those seas get stormy. I'm strong through Christ (Phil. 4:13) and God DEFINITELY raises me up to more that I can be. I'd be nothing without Him, absolutely nothing. Now, I don't know if Josh Groban is singing this song to God or not, but that is how I interpret it. So, even though I have NO idea what God has planned for me in my life, I'll just keep trekking along, and He will reveal it all to me in His time.

Anyway, enough with my inspirational or whatever talk. ;) Not much is going on in my life right now. I started back at DQ this week. It's been ok so far. I've really missed the people. It's been fun being able to catch up with everyone. Some of my B-town boys (Jason P., Jason K., and Chris G.) came and visited the great town of Sullivan yesterday. They were thoroughly impressed. ;) Thanks for coming to see me, guys!!!! I hope Sullivan didn't bore you too much. :) BTW, Jason K. is in love with H****** F******!!! :) LOL! Anyway, the night was pretty fun. We had dinner at Bobe's and then came back to my place and watched Goldmember. You guys should come visit more often! Liven up Sullivan life a little bit!! :)

Well, I need to get to bed. I don't have to work tomorrow :):) so I plan on spending most of the day outside as long as it doesn't rain. Maybe go for a run/walk and wash my car. I just want to enjoy the nice weather. Maybe I'll even help my dad out with the pool and backyard! Sounds like a plan. :) Well, everyone, have a nice day/night depending on when you read this. I love you all!!!

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Quote of the Day:
"P. Sherman 42 Wallabee Way, Sydney" - Dorie from Finding Nemo (my new favorite movie!! :) )

Hello! That was interesting. As I was typing this, I had a stray cat break through the screen in my window and run around my room! That was funny. It was crying and probably hungry and/or thirsty. It probably has no home and just wanted to be pet...*sigh*. I'm such a sucker for animals, especially stray ones. I just want to take them in and feed them and make them feel loved....ok, I'm stupid, I know! :) Anyway...back to the blogging.

Yesterday was a very sad day for me. I had to say good-bye, or shall I say "So long" to Steve. I'm so happy, yet so sad. I found out Tuesday night that Steve got a reporting job at a CBS station in Bryan/College Station, Texas. I'm soooo proud of him! The only bad part is that he has to leave on Monday!! He was supposed to be here the whole summer! So, I decided Tuesday night that I was gonna go to Bloomington to take care of a few things and hang out with everyone.

I got into town around 1 and ate lunch at Applebees with Eric and Jason. Or shall I say Eric and I ate at Applebees and Jason ate his Chicken Teriaki sandwhich from Penn Station. :) It was a good time. Then we went to the house and helped Bill out with some stuff, cleaning out the fridges, of which Eric did a grand job :) and Jason and I helped Bill take some stuff to Backstreet Mission. Later on, Jason and I went to TIS and I tried to kill us by almost getting in a wreck (this will be the first of two times I was almost in a wreck in one day!). Anyway, after calming down in the car for a few mintues, we went to TIS and then to Target.

I then took Jason home and headed to 482 to hang out with what I thought would be only Steve. To my surprise, the whole gang was there, Chris, Cody, Cory, Steve, Rachel, and Elyna. We all went and met the Sopers at MCL for dinner. (mmmm...chicken n noodles:) ) After dinner we headed over to the Soper's new place to hang out for a while. After hanging there for a while, the dreaded part of the evening came...I had to say good-bye to Steve. :(

He walked me out to my car and gave me a hug. He thanked me for "brightening up their part of the neighborhood" and told me that I was "never just Marc's Girlfriend." And the tears started flowing. :( We hugged and I almost didn't want to let go because I knew I wouldn't hug him again for a long time. We said our good-byes, and with tear filled eyes, I started driving away. *tearing up as I'm talking about this* :( Steve is just such an awesome guy, and I know that he is going to be great in Texas. I'm almost jealous of all those female reporters! They are darn lucky to get Steve!!! Even though I am sad, I know that Steve and I will meet again and we've always got AIM and unlimited cell phone minutes!! I love you, Steve, and I'll miss you!!!!

After leaving the Soper's, I head back into town to hang out with Jason and Eric for a little while longer before I headed home. We just hung out at Eric's place and watched Finding Nemo (GREAT MOVIE!!) I then headed home.

Today was filled with driving all over Sullivan to run errands. Nothing to interesting happened today. I'm excited about tomorrow. I'm heading to Crawfordsville to visit Mike and see his new apartment. We get to eat at The Beef House!!! If you've never heard of it, it is an AMAZING steak house!! I'm excited to see Mike; I haven't seen him since late February. I hear he's doing well. He got a job at UPS and is liking it. He and Andrea are supposed to be getting a cat some time soon. Mike's naming it Frederick. I'm excited about their wedding and Andrea becoming my sister-in-law; she is such a sweetheart!! Well, I think I'm gonna head on to bed. I have to get up semi-early tomorrow. Have a good day everyone and I love you all!!

Hello everyone! Like the new look? I do! After seeing Steve's new look, I decided to follow suit and change mine.

Well, I'm at home now in good ol' Sullivan, In. This town is as boring as usual. It has been nice to be home. I've been busy since the moment I walked in the door on Saturday. My room has been getting a make-over, and boy does it look pretty! :) I'm about half way done. I think I should be able to finish it up today. So that is pretty much what my time here at home so far has consisted of, other than spending some quality time with the fam.

I've decided that it is harder to move back in that I thought it would be. It's so different now. Bloomington has become more of a home to me than Sullivan over the past 8 months. It still seems like I should be packing up to head back to B-Town sometime soon. It's still kinda hard to believe that I am here for the summer. I already miss everyone in Bloomington. Watching RAW by myself last night kinda stunk. It really made me miss the wrestling gang. But, I'll be back in B-Town before I know it!

I was going to make this really long entry and reminisce on all the great memories of my first year at college because Lord knows that there has been several! But, instead I decided to do something a little different. Instead, I just want to send a big THANK YOU out to everyone who helped make this year an amazing freshman year for me. This most likely includes everyone who reads this!

482 Gang: You guys are awesome, every one of you. Thanks again for everything. For taking me in as "Marc's Girlfriend" and accepting me so now I am just "Kim." All four of you guys hold a special place in my heart.
Robby - You're like my second big brother! Thanks for always being there. Thanks for just being you!!
Cory - Thanks for everything, especially as of lately. Thanks for always listening to me gripe. I promise that I will play guitar and sing a song for you someday. Someday....;)
Steve - you are one of the greatest guys I know. You are kind, sweet, and such a gentleman. Thanks for everything. I'm really gonna miss you next year. I'll miss tanning, I'll miss your "What?" I'll miss "Obviously this man has been seriously injured..." Good luck in all you do. I know that you will find a great job somewhere. Who could turn you down??
Kyle - I know we haven't gotten to know each other real well this year, but I do still consider you and Aubrey some of my closest friends. Even though you can be a pain sometimes with all your little, excuse my language, smart-ass comments, you still will be greatly missed. You're a great guy. Good luck in all you do.

CSF gang: This includes everyone in and out of the house. All you CSFers are great!! I've really loved being able to get to know everyone of you. I'm not even sure exactly how many of you read this blog, but oh well. You guys are awesome!
April - you were a great roommate first semester. Thanks for all of your help and advice with everything this year. You're one of the greatest girls I know!
Ashley - you are were an awesome roommate as well. I really enjoyed being able to get to know you more this semester since it was just us in the room. I'm really gonna miss you next year (and your couch! :) ). Good luck at IUPUI next year and have fun in Europe!!
Jenny E. - I'm SO excited about being roommates next year!! I can't wait till Venezuela, I know we're gonna have a blast! You're a great friend and I just really can't wait till next year so that I can get to know you more.
I've realized that I am going to be here all day if I go through all the CSF people who I love, so instead, I'm just gonna send a huge I LOVE YOU out to the entire CSF gang! Wilkey, Steph, Melissa, Eric, Jason K., Jason P., Andy, Andrew, Matt, Daniella, Jenny, Chris G....the list goes on, I think you all get the idea. :)

Chris: All I have to say is thanks for everything. I've really enjoyed getting to know you this year. You've become a really great friend. Thanks for always listening to me. Thanks for all the advice you've given me. Just thanks for everything. :)

Cody: Another BIG thanks goes out to you. Thanks for all the advice you've given this year. Thanks for always helping me to keep a Godly out look on things. I'm gonna miss you not being around all the time next year. Who's gonna spear me when I least expect it??!! :) God Bless, Cody.

Last, but certainly not least, Marc: I don't even know where to begin my thanks to you. If it weren't for you, I wouldn't even know all of these wonderful people that I have been speaking about. I know that things are kinda rocky with us right now, and I don't really know what is going to happen with that whole situation, but I just want you to know a few things. First off, you are my best friend. You are the one I always want to talk to when anything good or bad goes on in my life. That is why it is so hard right now. I hope that someday, no matter what happens between us, I can still have that friendship. Secondly, you were a great boyfriend. Thank you for every rose, every kiss, every hug, and every "I love you." I know that they came from the bottom of your heart. Don't think that this break up is your fault. I've tried to explain it before, but I can't. I don't doubt your love for me or how much you care about me. Thirdly, I just want to say I'm sorry. I'm sorry for all the pain I'm causing you, I just hope that you will someday forgive me. I don't know what the future hold for us. Please just remember that I will always love you. I will always care about you. I will always remember all the good, and bad, times we had together. I will always cherish the past 28 months. Please believe me when I say I'm sorry. Please forgive me if I don't call or talk to you for a while. I need some time and I thank you for giving me the time that I need, even though it is hurting you. I hope that you are felling better and that summer school goes well for you. Thank you for everything. I am the person that I am today because of you.

*Sigh* Well, now that I got all that off my chest, I need to go finish up my room. I've got a lot of cleaning and vacuuming to do. I hope everyone is doing well, and I already miss everyone. Have a great day and a great summer!!

I love you all!!!! :)

Family Guy Quote of the Day:
Peter: Have they ever shown him doing somebody in and then feeding on him?
Brian: You're asking if they've ever done a Sesame Street in which the Count kills somebody and then sucks their blood for sustenance.
Peter: Yeah.
Brian: No, they've never done that.

Hello Everyone! Sorry for the lack of updates; I've been pretty busy with work and finals. Well, yesterday I had my first two finals, both of which I feel went rather well. I studied all day Sunday for them until about 1 a.m. I then went to bed and got up at 6 to go to Steak n Shake for breakfast with Marc before we went to our 8 a.m. final. So, needless to say, at 11:45 when I walked out of my Spanish final after being in final for almost 4 hours straight, I felt wonderful!!! I only have one final left, and it isn't until Thursday night, so I've got plenty of time to study.

After my finals yesterday, I came home and took a nap and then went to North Daviees with Marc to watch Michael's track meet. It was fun, but a little awkward around his parents given the current situation. I was excited to witness all that Marc has talked about referring to Michael. That boy is a beast!!! He is definitely going to kick butt when he gets to high school!! After the meet, we went to DQ for dinner and then headed to 482 for my last Monday night with the guys for the summer. :( I'm going to miss Monday nights. Watching wrestling all by myself in my room just isn't going to be the same. *sigh* I'm sure I'll be down every now and then over the summer, so that will be good. After RAW, I came home and Ashley, Mary, and ERIC ( :) ) were hanging out in my room. We talked for a while and then watched Kill Bill Vol. 1. Pretty good movie, not as gruesome as everyone made it out to be. It was bloody, but very fake blood. I got to bed around 2:30 or 3 and got up at 11. I went on a walk today which was nice. It is sooo gorgeous outside. I love springtime!!! :) I love the sunshine and the cool breeze. *sigh* Anyway....

Well, the time has come to start thinking about packing, something I really don't want to do. I've just got too much crap!! Here and at home. Plus, it's just kinda sad to think about leaving. I've had such a great year, and I have so many great memories. It's sad, but I'll only be gone for 4 months and then I'll be back and I'll get to meet new people and create new memories.

I've discovered that I am becoming more and more confused everyday. The past couple days have been really nice with Marc. On Friday, he initiated "radio silence," but that only lasted a day, which I am happy about. We talked a little on Saturday and then studied together all day Sunday and we hung out yesterday. I've had a lot of fun with him the past few days. That makes me wonder why I am doing what I am doing. I still can't help to think that no matter how much fun I am having with him and how much I enjoy being with him, I still need to take this time away from him. I'm not exactly sure why, I just know that I have to. I guess throughout this break, I'll just figure out how much Marc really means to me. I dunno. It's so confusing and hard to explain, so I don't blame you if you don't understand. If you pray, just keep this situation in your prayers if you would; I would really appreciate it. :) Well, I need to go study for my American History final now, and then get ready for work. Have a great day everyone, and enjoy the sunshine!!!

Love,